Mild Insanity
Well. I sure haven't updated this sucker in a bit, so I doubt anyone is even checking here anymore, but what the hey. Let's post.
I understand why artists are a little nutty. Or, rather, I understand a bit of why I'm a bit nutty. I imagine it's pretty close to someone who hears voices in their head, something urging them on to do something. Often, as I try to fall asleep I get this burst of inspiration, or perhaps it's really just an odd sort of longing. In any case, this thing makes me want to get up, boot my computer, and work on some random stuff. Even when I'm sick, even when I know I should get some sleep because I have to get up early, because... because I have to. Because if I don't, I'm somehow less of whatever it is I should be.
So here I am, awake at four in the morning, listening to music and working on another book. And now writing this post, of course. Because I have to. Because if I don't, well, I'll just be up for another few hours thinking about how I should and how working on this story is more important than feeling healthy and awake in the morning. This, of course, is just a minor part of my minor insanity, but it certainly doesn't help with the part of me that pretends to be normal.
And since I mentioned I was working on this story, I should mention this other bit - I threw up another blog into the vastness of the internets. I'll be using this other blog to post a chapter of this new book each week, until I either finish or decide posting is a bad, horrible idea. I've been toying with the idea of doing some self marketing and promotion via the internet, taking control of my destiny, speaking with my own voice, etc, so this is a way for me to dip my toes into those waters to see how I like it. It's a private blog, you need to be invited to see it, so if you're reading this and didn't get an invite already, just let me know about how I've overlooked your poor soul and I'll send you one. Unless I have no idea who the hell you are.
And now I'm going to get back to working on this book. Maybe I'll get to see the sunrise too. Haven't done that in a bit. Could be fun.
I love the summer.
I understand why artists are a little nutty. Or, rather, I understand a bit of why I'm a bit nutty. I imagine it's pretty close to someone who hears voices in their head, something urging them on to do something. Often, as I try to fall asleep I get this burst of inspiration, or perhaps it's really just an odd sort of longing. In any case, this thing makes me want to get up, boot my computer, and work on some random stuff. Even when I'm sick, even when I know I should get some sleep because I have to get up early, because... because I have to. Because if I don't, I'm somehow less of whatever it is I should be.
So here I am, awake at four in the morning, listening to music and working on another book. And now writing this post, of course. Because I have to. Because if I don't, well, I'll just be up for another few hours thinking about how I should and how working on this story is more important than feeling healthy and awake in the morning. This, of course, is just a minor part of my minor insanity, but it certainly doesn't help with the part of me that pretends to be normal.
And since I mentioned I was working on this story, I should mention this other bit - I threw up another blog into the vastness of the internets. I'll be using this other blog to post a chapter of this new book each week, until I either finish or decide posting is a bad, horrible idea. I've been toying with the idea of doing some self marketing and promotion via the internet, taking control of my destiny, speaking with my own voice, etc, so this is a way for me to dip my toes into those waters to see how I like it. It's a private blog, you need to be invited to see it, so if you're reading this and didn't get an invite already, just let me know about how I've overlooked your poor soul and I'll send you one. Unless I have no idea who the hell you are.
And now I'm going to get back to working on this book. Maybe I'll get to see the sunrise too. Haven't done that in a bit. Could be fun.
I love the summer.
posted by Trintara at 4:14 AM
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